Monthly Archives: January 2010

Textual Healing at PodCamp Toronto 2010

We’re really disappointed that we won’t be able to attend PodCamp Toronto this year. It’s always a great event at which to learn, meet new people and reconnect with our friends. However, with Andrea in chemotherapy right now, we have to … Continue reading

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I’ll be in the hospital bar

The challenge of having a naturally positive attitude is the tendency to take for granted that things will always be smooth. It can be extremely sobering when you get a shot across the bow to remind you that, particularly where … Continue reading

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Risking My Significance (today is chemo#3)

Living Wide Open: Landscapes of the Mind (by Dawna Markova) I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open … Continue reading

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Breaking the Rules

Have I mentioned that I love the canal? As I walk and jog at its edge each day, it rarely fails to share a story. Tales of hopeful preparations and thwarted plans. Spunky students risking shortcuts. Rogue skaters and mysteries. … Continue reading

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Misfit

I feel like an alien among the healthy. And I felt like an alien in the support group. But I’m happy as a clam in my chemo-created cocoon. Just me, my pooch, my runners, my skates, my computer, my sewing … Continue reading

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Support Group Jitters

I’m gutted by groups. As I lurk awkwardly, battling the urge to bolt, the remaining strangers meet, beam, chat, laugh and connect. Stuck quaking on the outside of the quickly bonding group, my panic grows, my force field thickens. I’m … Continue reading

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Happiness Is…

Almost three weeks between hospital visits. During the early months of this journey, Mark and I disrupted several workdays each week for medical tests, consultations and related appointments. With my complete paperwork neatly organized and in hand, Mark navigated the … Continue reading

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Hopes for Healing

During our Head Shaving Party last month, Lucy and Bayla provided each guest with strips of white electrical tape and the opportunity to mark and share the stories of their scars – powerful evidence for our young daughters that each … Continue reading

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SMS? Really?

This is a question that comes up occassionally. Yes. Really. Andrea really SMS’d me to let me know the biopsy results when she received them on October 6. You can see it for yourself in the image of this post. … Continue reading

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From the Mouth of Bayla #6

When I came back from the Canal (about 7 minutes ago) Lucy and I washed, dried and put away the dishes and wiped the snow off of our skates now I am writing this post after this Lucy and I … Continue reading

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Frozen Forgiveness

There are tonnes of things I love about living in Ottawa, and the Rideau Canal Skateway is number one, hands down. In twenty-four winters of hopes dashed or bettered, I have never had a harsh word for the skateway. Even … Continue reading

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Happiness Is…

Long, strong friendships. Bill In a crowded Calculus lecture hall, first year at Waterloo, I spied a gangly guy in a fedora. In the twenty-six years since then, Bill and I have covered a lot of ground. We made it … Continue reading

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Our Powerful Hidden Selves

Toby is a Crocodile (by Dr. Barbara Nichol) When you see him in his basket, Toby seems to be asleep. But though his eyes are closed, our Toby isn’t counting sheep. I have for you the kind of news you … Continue reading

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Rebuilding Me

Almost daily, I’m encouraged to “keep fighting!” and, while I sincerely appreciate the emboldening intention, I’m always a bit perplexed. I’m not fighting. In fact, I’ve never fought less. During my 12 precarious years at Nortel, I was fighting. During … Continue reading

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Ordinary is the new extraordinary

As part of the process of rationalizing something for myself, I’d like to tell you about a few people we know. The Ottawa Hospital Cancer Centre and Chemotherapy Clinic have some amazing volunteers. Patricia and Dave, in particular, come to … Continue reading

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