Escape from Sudden Valley

Recovery from chemo2 has been miles better than chemo1. Correcting my inadvertently doubled steroid prescription allowed me to sleep the nights immediately following my infusion and to skip the hangover that kept me moaning on the couch days 5, 6 and 7 last time round.

Still, late Tuesday afternoon, I fell into a Sudden Valley of self-pity.

Maybe it was the lurking nausea that makes me gasp at smells, repetition and gross thoughts of all kinds; the accumulating isolation and detachment from normal, happy, healthy life; or the banning of all my favourite treats.

Whatever the reason, I fell fairly hard and spent most of two days in a smile-free limbo that included two temper tantrums, relentless grimacing and the frenzied consumption of a family-sized bag of Miss Vickie’s Salt & Vinegar chips.

And then they opened the Rideau Canal Skateway.

No sugar, no caffeine, no alcohol, no germs. Just the swish, swish of strong legs on blades on ice.

And life is good again.

About Andrea

Andrea Ross was diagnosed with breast cancer October 6, 2009 and intends to survive and thrive. You can read more from Andrea here.

  • bobledrew

    Your post made me think of lyrics that I love, from Joe Jackson's song “Shanghai Sky”:

    How the world got so small
    I turned around and there was nowhere left to go
    So sad the dream always dies
    Each new arrival closes places in my mind
    But I can dream until I go
    Of smells that I don't recognize
    And by the river in Shanghai
    The colour of the sky
    Is something I've never seen
    After the summer rain
    Children smile
    Curious and kind
    And the world is big again

  • pumpkinpatchprimitives

    Hang in there! Hope the bad days are outnumbered by the good days. Stay strong. Big hugs! B

  • Thanks, Brenda. Very luckily for all of us, the good days do far outnumber the bad.

    Be well and be happy, Brenda!


  • Thanks, Brenda. Very luckily for all of us, the good days do far outnumber the bad. nnBe well and be happy, Brenda!nnAndrea

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