We Can Rebuild Her
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Darkness

The millions of things I have to say today are too poisonous.

So I won’t.

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Andrea Posted by Andrea March 19, 2010

March 19, 2010 at 11:22 am.

12 comments

  • Linda W

    So very sorry to hear, wrote you a longer note in email, good thoughts to you and wishing for a way out of the darkness.

  • Jay

    Hi Andrea,
    I hate to see you in such pain. I wish I could make you better. Hang in there–you're almost on the other side of this darkness.

  • http://www.WeCanRebuildHer.com Andrea Ross

    Linda, Jay: Thank you.
    I'll be thrilled to be through all this and to be happy and healthy. And to not come back here again afterward.

    One more month.

  • http://www.sfens.wordpress.com/ Susan Ens Funk

    One of my good friends started this same journey just over a year ago. When I see your post today, I think of her. She is strong, happy, healthy. Blessings on you as you walk through this terrible day. May you soon feel well.

  • http://www.WeCanRebuildHer.com Andrea Ross

    Thank you, Susan.

  • http://thewhiteforest.com/ Danika Dinsmore

    we dont know each other, but I've been peeking in on your progress ever since I dropped by your Just One More Book site and read the news.

    i think you should allow yourself to say the poisonous things when you need to. that's part of it too. as someone with a chronic illness (a long period of incapacity followed by healing) i know it's impossible to be the strong one every day.

    you are an inspiration. and your journey touches more people than you realize.

  • http://www.WeCanRebuildHer.com Andrea Ross

    Danika,

    Thank you for being part of our journey and for your kind comment.

    I guess I do let the poison come out in sobs and spoken words. I resisted the urge to make a permanent and public record here. I am trying to share a genuine version of this story here and sometimes it's tough to know where to draw the line.

    Wishing you continued and long-lasting healing. And much happiness,
    Andrea

  • Nancy

    I am a strong believer in letting the poison out too. I held mine far too long. In part, that is what I meant in another comment a couple of weeks ago about “the truth will set you free”.

  • Kelly

    Andrea, this photo breaks my heart…I can almost feel your pain. YOU ARE SO STRONG, YOU ARE SO BRAVE, IN MY EYES YOU ARE WONDER WOMEN AND YOU WILL BE WELL! YOU ARE CANCER FREE!!!
    I love you Andrea. I'm looking forward to seeing you in April.

  • Luke

    Hello my dear Andrea!
    I Hope and I KNOW you are going to feel alot better (CANCER FREE!) Just let all those evil tempting things OUT!
    We love you so much with all our hearts! I feel a part of my heart is now cracked with that tear in your beatiful eye…But any who back to my point, Turn that sad FACE into one of your BEATIFUL FACE!
    On your next blog tell everyone the bright side of things 0_0 I know your sick with chemo but my heart yells to see your smile!
    This message is to you, and to anyone with chemo cancer or any disablity!

    Love cousin:Luke Ross xoxoxo

  • http://www.WeCanRebuildHer.com Andrea Ross

    Thank you, Kelly.

  • http://www.WeCanRebuildHer.com Andrea Ross

    Hello my dear Luke,

    Thank you for your wisdom, encouragement and support. You are a wise and caring soul.

    Last Friday was a very tough day. It's funny, because it was much tougher than the day of my diagnosis, or the day I discovered all the lymph nodes removed were cancerous. And all because I was suddenly overwhelmed by hopelessness.

    Hope really makes a difference. Well, that and not being in a week full of pain, discomfort, fatigue and inability to remember feeling normal!

    Anyway, I'm back from the depths of despair now and I can't wait to see you in April! Very soon!

    Thanks again for your kind note,

    Love,
    Andrea
    xoxoxoxo