When your happiness depends on what somebody else does or does not do, you’re trapped, because you cannot control what they think or what they do.
You will discover a true liberation, a freedom beyond your wildest drams, when you discover that your joy does not depend on anyone else. Your joy only depends on what you choose to give your attention to.
— Sarah, Book 1, Esther and Jerry Hicks, 1995. Hay House Inc.
“What do you want?” Sarah asks me.
What do I want?
I want more. I want to crash out of this invisible armor I’m trapped in – to tear away the shackles and freefall, delirious and wild. I want to plummet naked into a velvet ocean at midnight and roll in the ecstasy of the waves. I want to peel back my layers and hold my raw wounds up to the sun for healing.
I want to slice through these suffocating wrappings and grab onto CORE ME – whoever that is – and never let her go; make her into the real me, the only me, for some to love and some not to love .. . and I want to not so painfully care who does and who doesn’t.
I want to feel, taste, devour it all – no filters, no censors, no gatekeeper telling me what is rightfully mine to take and what isn’t. I want rapture at the top of a mountain under a full moon. I want to absorb me, embrace me, the light and the dark, the glorious and the hideous, and cherish it all and laugh at it all forever.
Sarah’s back. “So what do you want?” she asks.
What do I want? “Caprese salad and a cup of pasta fagioul.”
We close our menus and clink our chiantis…
— Juicy Joy – 7 Simple Steps to Your Glorious, Gutsy Self. Lisa McCourt. (This book is not yet published. You can snag a sneak peek by signing up for Lisa’s newsletter, here.)
By the time you reach 101, you will have learned many lessons. For instance, you will have learned that almost nothing turns out according to plan. And you will know that when we get what we wish for, it is often because we have followed a twisty path.
— After Hamelin, Bill Richardson. Annick Press. 2000.
“Fish eating’s like anything else in life, Elijah. If you go at it ‘specting something bad to happen, all you gunn do is draw that bad thing to you. You caint be timid ’bout nothing you do, you got to go at it like you ‘specting good things to come out of it. If I’s to worry bout bones choking me, it’d happen every time I et fish. Ain’t nothing further from my mind”
Elijah of Buxton. Christopher Paul Curtis. Scholastic Press. 2007.
We know that living organisms must receive and interpret environmental signals in order to stay alive. In fact, survival is directly related to the speed and efficiency of signal transfer. The speed of electromagnetic energy signals is 186,000 miles per second, while the speed of a diffusible chemical is considerably less than 1 centimetre per second.
Energy signals are 1000 times more efficient and infinitely faster than physical chemical signaling. What kind of signaling would your trillion-celled community prefer? Do the math!
I believe the major reason why energy research has been all but ignored comes down to dollars and cents. The trillion-dollar pharmaceutical industry puts its research money into the search for magic bullets in the form of chemicals because pills mean money. If energy healing could be made into tablet form, drug manufacturers would get interested quickly.
— Bruce Lipton, Ph D. The Biology of Belief, 2005.
You can get a good glimpse of a revised understanding of science and how it applies to daily life in this fabulous talk.
“But turtles can’t fly,” said the bird.
“They can’t?” said Tudley. “I didn’t know that.”
He looked down at the shocked faces of turtles below.
“Did you know that turtles can’t fly?” he called down.
They all just nodded.
— Tudley Didn’t Know by John Himmelman.
Sylvan Dell Publishing 2006
I’m going to start reading this picture book first thing every morning.
Adversity isn’t an obstacle that we need to get around in order to resume living our life.
It’s part of our life.
Our responsibility is not simply shielding those we care for from adversity
but preparing them to meet it well.
— Aimee Mullins
More about Aimee Mullins here, here and here.
Yes, my guard stood hard
When abstract threats
Too noble to neglect
Deceived me into thinking
I had something to protect
Good and bad, I define these terms
Quite clear, no doubt, somehow
Ah, but I was so much older then
I’m younger than that now.
— Bob Dylan. My Back Pages. 1968
I think of cancer as a teacher that was not invited but has come to my house to visit from time to time nonetheless. It sits on my left side whispering insistent questions that I cannot answer but still must explore: Who am I when I stop doing? What have I come here to give? What is unfinished for me to learn, to experience? Am I leaving a legacy that enables others to live bigger lives than I have?
— I Will Not Die An Unlived Life: Reclaiming Purpose and Passion , Dawna Markova
Red Wheel Weiser, 2000.
No Lifeguard on Duty
It is difficult
when one is drowning
to wave to the people on shore
one wants to be
friendly, of course
but perhaps it is
— Lois Tschetter Hjelmstad, 1990. Fine Black Lines: Reflections on facing cancer, fear and loneliness.
The Circle of Life
The stories of cancer survivors reveal a common thread that runs through all their experiences. After the initial shock of being diagnosed with cancer, their worlds turn black. But, as they go through the journeys of cancer treatment, all the colours of the rainbow become more vibrant against the dark background.
The journey exposes the importance of family, friends, colleagues and the caring medical community. As the circle of life closes, many survivors find a need to give back to the community and begin to help others through their own journeys.
Unfortunately, there are still those who do not survive the disease. Many of these patients have tried experimental procedures that were not successful for them and the lessons learned helped many others to survive. These courageous people must never be forgotten.
This quilted wall hanging is dedicated to all those who have had cancer touch their lives. It was made by the women of the Country Club Quilters group in Beacon Hill under the leadership of Thelma Robbins and was presented to The Ottawa Hospital Cancer Centre on April 19, 2010.
Pattern by: Marti Mitchell
Quilted by: Grace Whiting
Framed by: Rothwell Gallery
A blast from my past — and no drizzling rain:
She said “Where ya been?”
I said “No place special”
She said “You look different”
I said “Well I guess”
She said “You been gone”
I said “That’s only natural”
She said “You gonna stay?”
I said “If you want me to, Yeah”.
— Bob Dylan. Isis. 1975
Let me ask you something.
If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient?
If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous?
If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?
— “God”. Evan Almighty
Medical science is not focused on prevention of cancer because it is almost impossible to get research grants for it. Unlike a tumor to cut out, you can’t see prevention. It earns no fat fees, sells no drugs, confers no status, hones no surgical skills, plumps no resumes, buys no publicity, provides no immediate gratification at all. No researcher or agency can convincingly claim the credit for prevention. Few, therefore, are motivated to try.
— Michael Colgan, PhD. You Can Prevent Cancer, Apple Tree Publishing 2007.
Forgiveness is a skill. Like any other skill we have to practice it… We have to practice forgiveness daily, all day long, … to build up our forgiveness muscles.
— Lama Marut. What Forgiveness Is and Isn’t. 2008.